Would you get a load of that countdown ticker on the right? 2 more days. As I sit here imagining holding our baby girl in less than 48 hours, I am overcome with joy! I am so blessed. I have an amazing husband, a beautiful little girl, and a baby who is about to bless us with her appearance. Life is good.
I'd be lying if I said it was all joy that I am feeling. I am also feeling a bit fearful. The first time you have a baby it's all about you....how it will change your life, your relationship with your spouse, your routine, your body, etc. This time around I feel as though I haven't thought much about how baby girl's arrival will impact me. Instead, I am 100% focused on Julianne and how bringing a new babe home will affect her. I know that she will eventually be fine and grow to love her sister. My concern is the immediate future. Bringing the baby home and no longer being able to focus 100% of my attention on her and how she will react to that. I'm hoping that daddy having 2 weeks of paternity leave and my parents being here to give her plenty of attention will help. I'm also hoping that if I expect the worse, maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised! It doesn't help when people share horror stories about what their kid did when they brought home a new baby. Anyone have any good stories to share? I think I could use some!
I'm also feeling a bit anxious for my surgery. My c-section with Julianne went really smoothly and I had a great recovery so I'm hoping the second time around will go just as well. It's always nerve racking though....getting cut open and all. I'm saying prayers that my nerves will be calmed and I will be able to be in the moment.
I've been nesting like crazy (if that's what you want to call it). I have not been able to relax. Yesterday, I cleaned every baseboard in our house and went back and touched up all the marks I couldn't get off with paint. Crazy? Yes. Right now I'm getting ready to go organize the pantry and refrigerator because I went grocery shopping today and I can't possibly put all these groceries away without rearranging everything (even though it's pretty organized already). I've cleaned out almost every closet in our house. I painted two storage benches that we are going to now use as toy chests in the basement. I started our taxes and am hoping to finish them tomorrow. I booked a place for Julianne's birthday party and ordered the invitations. I started her 2 year slide show. I cleaned out the storage area in the basement and sold a bunch of stuff on ebay and took a few things to the children's consignment shop (we have too much stuff)! After countless days of Shaun telling me to relax and put my feet up, I think he has come to the realization that I don't do relaxing very well and he is wasting his breath. Oh well, I can relax at the hospital since I have to stay in bed for a few days (with leisurely walks around the postpartum floor). I'm hoping to get some sleep in the hospital since I've only been sleeping about 4 hours a night.
Still to do before Friday: pack hospital bag for me and baby, clean house, do all laundry and ironing, finish taxes. That should do it!